Something Silver and New

So, now that I am 18, I finally decided I want to get my lip pierced. I have wanted to do it for a while now, but I didn't really want to find the time to take my parents to a body piercing place.  Here are two pictures of what it would look like if I did have it done...





Looks pretty real, doesn't it? That's because it is! haha I did it tonight and it wasn't too painful.  I am enjoying it so far. I also went to Mr. Peep's and of all things bought some candy and a lighter... lol. There were some nasty things in there though... bleh. But this lip ring is a surprise, so no one read this until you have seen it!

not again

I wish I knew how to love or be loved. I suck at difficult things and saying no to anyone.

That's all.

I seriously heart this kid....

A little band called Sugarcult once wrote this great
song called WorstTo December, and some of the things it says in it
remind me of Chris. Actually, every beautiful song reminds me of
this guy, I am dying just to hug him each day. (It's actually a
saddish song, but these words make me think of him...)


"All I wanna do is lie in bed with you
All I really ever need is you
It's a different day

1500 miles away
Why would you want to stay?

All I wanna do is lie in bed with you
All I really ever need is you

All I really need is you
I'm waiting here for you"

And he said the sweetest, most poetic thing to me tonight: "I missed you... I have missed you all of my life, that's 18 years and 2 months..." I was speechless, and I bet you are reading this, you are beautiful.

muah!

Wonderful



Dorks... hehehe



His myspace mugshot... looks like a pro-hottie, I know.

So Alive

Music makes me who I am, it makes my feeling. I am in such a chill mood right now, as I have been all day. I got my hair cut today, if I knew how to post a pic, I would. It looked bad at first, but now that I have spiffied it all up it looks better. After the cut, I went to Bigfoot Lacrosse and got my $66 pair of goggles, how expensive... it sucks. I think I should start a lacrosse store out here, people would come and it would make money, but I am too lame. Anyway, after that I went home and Jazz came over and brought her little puppy named scout. We took him for a walk around my block and this little fat girl yells at us "Hey, I thought those were two boys!!!" because Jazz has always had her hair short and now mine is. This little girl's parents were standing right behind her laughing... so I yelled back... heh... some of the things I won't repeat, but I was like "I'm not deaf, idiot. Why don't you shut up?" And it made me feel good because I know where they live and they don't know where I live. Tomorrow I'm egging that house because they let their dumb daughter talk crap to perfect strangers. What if I was going to give them a million dollars? Or what if I was mentally unstable and had a gun? People these days have no respect for others. After that, Chris came over and checked out my hair and hung out for like 3 hours. It was fun. Now I am about to eat dinner and then I am off to Sean Harrington's because he wants to see my hair, and I love hanging out with him. I don't know what we'll do though. Then after that, I might roll on over to Lisa's so she can check out my hair-do... and then I have an indoor soccer game at 9:20. I think I might play a couple games if anyone needs me. I need to go eat and drink water. But yeah, moral of the story: I had a CHILL day! <3

Today I Was Left Alone

Although I had my friends to surround me, today was like an empty corridor with sounds echoing off the walls. I spaced out in endless mind-thought and I enjoyed every second. School was rotten again. I know I am using big words, just ignore them... I am on drugs for my cold. I don't feel I have learned much this year, maybe it's because I have stopped trying. Why bother anyway? Some how I am still passing all these useless tests and lectures. I feel like I am wasting away. It's okay though. It's just the ache of college on my back, ripping me apart, begging me to free it. lol... poetic... Anyway, I do feel like I need to grow up soon, but sometimes it's too fast.

I realised today many of my friends suffer from lack of relationships. They want to be loved. Why need a significant other when you have great friends by your side? A lot of people think the time for a relationship is now, in high school. But I can speak from experience that it isn't always great. I believe that two things in life drive most people: love and music. Music is the lesser of the two of course, but still important. Love is something everyone needs. If you don't have love, what is there? Most people are just looking for it in the wrong places when it could already be right under their nose. In this past year alone I have found love in unlikely places. In new friends or old friends I have gotten closer with. It is what drives us as a society. It's a pretty cool thing. That's why things like hate suck so bad because they are the opposite of love, it is our downfall.

Crap... what am I going on about?

Music, I love music, you love music. It makes us feel, and it uncovers hidden emotions. It's just entrancing (even if it's not techno).

K, the drugs are getting me, I need to go!