Today I Was Left Alone
Although I had my friends to surround me, today was like an empty corridor with sounds echoing off the walls. I spaced out in endless mind-thought and I enjoyed every second. School was rotten again. I know I am using big words, just ignore them... I am on drugs for my cold. I don't feel I have learned much this year, maybe it's because I have stopped trying. Why bother anyway? Some how I am still passing all these useless tests and lectures. I feel like I am wasting away. It's okay though. It's just the ache of college on my back, ripping me apart, begging me to free it. lol... poetic... Anyway, I do feel like I need to grow up soon, but sometimes it's too fast.
I realised today many of my friends suffer from lack of relationships. They want to be loved. Why need a significant other when you have great friends by your side? A lot of people think the time for a relationship is now, in high school. But I can speak from experience that it isn't always great. I believe that two things in life drive most people: love and music. Music is the lesser of the two of course, but still important. Love is something everyone needs. If you don't have love, what is there? Most people are just looking for it in the wrong places when it could already be right under their nose. In this past year alone I have found love in unlikely places. In new friends or old friends I have gotten closer with. It is what drives us as a society. It's a pretty cool thing. That's why things like hate suck so bad because they are the opposite of love, it is our downfall.
Crap... what am I going on about?
Music, I love music, you love music. It makes us feel, and it uncovers hidden emotions. It's just entrancing (even if it's not techno).
K, the drugs are getting me, I need to go!
1 Comments:
I need to wake up to that fact, because I do have such great friends. You've got it right there, sometimes these thoughts get carried away and I don't know what i really want or need.
I'd say to you, take your lovely friends and get out. Afterschool go out, drive somewhere; a park, the mall, anywhere and get away for a bit. It's soo good for you. Take the weekend to go to the beach and enjoy your friendships. That'll make high points in the week to make up for the wasting of time points.
You're a super girl Heather, I'm glad I got to know you this year, truly. You're incredibly motivated and you'll do well in life, I have confidence in that.
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